I stepped on the scale this morning (as i do every Wednesday) to get an idea of what my weigh-in will be at WW today. My scale said 142.6, and the WW scale is usually about a 1/2 pound more than that. (I was 142.0 last week at WW). That means I'm up. Probably about a pound.
I know this shouldn't be a big deal to me, but it is. I'm so used to seeing the losses that it's easy to lose perspective and totally freak out. I've been pushing and working so hard, both in really trying to be good about my food intake, and in exercising as much as my knee will let me.
I know that I'm not perfect and i slip up sometimes. I know that you're not supposed to obsess about the scale.
But I do.
I'm really trying to refocus and recenter myself. I'm going to have to come to terms with the fact that making my Goal by July 1 (1 week from today) is probably not going to happen. In fact, we go on vacation the week after next, which means maintaining and/or losing will be a challenge. So realistically, it may be the middle or end of July before i make goal.
When I've battled my weight this long, i know that a few more weeks shouldn't matter. But it's so deflating when your goal is *thisclose* and suddenly you get further and further away.
Not going to lie. I'm burned out.
I've been on such a 'health food' kick for the past 2-3 months, that I've not let myself have very many foods that i truly love. Ehh, i like my food alright, but i come from the "food = pleasure" southern society, and there are still some emotional links that i can't break. Certain foods are truly comforting and make me feel good. I feel deprived right now, because I've been so strict with my intake. But if i give in and eat a burger/chicken fried steak/buttermilk biscuit/cheesecake, I'm going to be mad at myself for going off track, and getting further from goal.
How do you balance this?
Do you eat a comfort food meal, and then get back on the bandwagon?
Do you accept that some foods are just not going to be acceptable anymore?
Any other words of wisdom or motivation to get me refocused?
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Look how much weight you've already lost. It's not like you're suddenly going to abandon all of these good habits that have gotten you here. I get the burn-out mentality - it happens to us all. Whenever I have eliminated a favoite food forever is when I've gotten in trouble. Once something is forbidden - it's like I MUST have it. The whole deprivation thing completely backfires on me. Everything in moderation keeps me sane.
ReplyDeleteGood luck. We all get knocked off center once in a while. At least you're aware it's happening.
How frustrating!
ReplyDeleteI think Gigi has a great point about how much weight you've already lost, and all those good habits you've developed. You have so much to be proud of!
I have to allow myself some indulgences--but it works best when it's intentionally and in moderation. If everything good is off limits, I think I'd rebel in a big way.
For me, deprivation does not work ! I always allow myself the things I want, but I log it in my food journal and cut back somewhere else ! I don't know about you, but for me saying I will never have cake, or cookies or chocolate it just unrealistic. I have a serving, and that is it. I may cut back on the caloies of the next meal, or the next day I may cut back on the entire day's total. It is really important to learn to indulge without going overboard if you want to make this a lifestlyle change ! It has to be sustainable. Indulge yourself once in a while !
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